Hi, I’m Austin from Texas, and I guarantee you I’ve hit more rock bottoms than you have. It’s never as bad as it seems.
One of the stories that comes to mind, for me, is when I didn’t sleep for seven days. It was my birthday, we were partying extra hard on crystal meth. And you have to understand something, this is a drug that when you take it, it’s not like cocaine. You stay up for 24 hours, guaranteed, even if it’s a small little line. So you kind of get in this vicious cycle, right? And the cycle is, I’m trying to go to bed, but I can’t eat because of the Meth doesn’t make you want to eat.
So I would stay up for a day. I’d never eaten all day. I’d go to work or something like that. And then you would try to take Xanax to go to bed.
So that week, I stayed up for seven days. I took 40 Xanax, never went to sleep. So you’re riding this roller coaster of up and down, side to side. And then the no sleep with the no eating is a lack of nutrition. Well, lack of nutrition, I mean, I think I lost 20 pounds in seven days. And it was just one of those massive rock bottoms for me because what happened in the last two days was, I started having hallucinogens.
I started seeing rabbits everywhere on the road that wasn’t there and I was driving.
I’m like, what the fuck am I doing?
You’re just out of your mind and you don’t even understand what you’re doing, right? And it’s just one of those things that, when you look back on it and you think you’re like, dude, it was rough. Because you’re withering away inside, your pants are falling off, you’re riding these emotional roller coasters up and down.
And you’re just, at the moment, probably thinking you’re having a good time, and you’re just in this vicious cycle over and over and over again.
I’m going to get up in the morning and then I’m going to try to go to bed, but then I don’t go to bed.
And then, so you’re just not eating and it’s just this vicious, vicious cycle.
And it really was one of the low points in my life. And it really was one of those moments that you can, officially, deem as a rock bottom.